LAUGHTHER; the best medicine :D
PROMOS are finally over.ok it has been over for 2 weeks but then i'm still in a relieved mood althoug the results sucks to the core.. I dont think i will retain and i hope i wont retain but then life is never about what you want anyway so face it man.i hope DUDUS can turn to DUDSS becase chem had totally no hope now and i hope econs can be nice.afraid of dropping.not only a subject but a cca that i've came to love and treasure.sucks right if i have to give up one.i dont know which to give up econs or bio but i hope i wont have a chance to ponder over this question.should i follow my drean which has always been there since primary sch or should i take my A level into account and just chooce a subject that is easy to study.ah shit hate thinking about all these crap.and can i get into sch team?i hope and think i can but then will i do well?i dont know.life is full of uncertainities(or how do you spell it) and i dont want to drop squash.sad to say but i will choose squash over house comm but glad to say our hse comm is getting bonded.:)in the beginning i thought i'll feel very put of place as i dont belong there initially but then i'm glad i'm wrong.MOVIE next week with the other crazy 6 ppl but no PHOBIA 2 please.afraid that 09S116 is gonna disappear and we haven even have a freaking class shirt.holidays gonna be damm busy with revision,OGL,dances and squash.busy but happy i hope.
serioulsy why the hell am i being troubled over it?you are none of my business and why should i care and feel upset when you keep mentioning her.and i cant believe i actually felt nervous when i saw you.when you suddenly popped up infront of me out of the blue.we cant get along anyway.ah shut up gaoning or whatever you are thinking cause go on dreaming about it and you will just feel sad.oh get a life gn cause he's totally not worth it.or is he?shucks.
Meet new friends, new classmates, new CCA *SQUASH(:*, got into TRITON housecomm(ITS GREEN!!) and a new thing.=)
Had quite alot of things bottled up in a sense.kinda like there's noone in this world who understand everything?as in maybe 90% but not everything.oh well, sad to say, i feel that i'm changing.In a bad way. I'm getting more and more impatient, more and more bad tempered and more and more naive in the sense i believe what others have said, resulting in me in having no stand or opinions of my own.AM I?i dont know.confused about what i'm thinking, confused about why am i even thinking like that in the first place.Had conflict/s within the class already and i'm kinda the middle person. I said dont involve me in it and yet, i'm still stuck in between. Luckily its over but then is it really truly over?Now that i thought of it, another one is already brewing up(pardon the broken english).
no offence to the ppl but then i think MJC is a great school (despite those mugger rumours cause i dont think it is that bad)and now it seems a little screwed because of well obviously the ppl.i think the problem lies with me la.
TRITON CHEERLEADING
missed everything about it.i was very disappointed with the results. I know we may not get first but last? THAT doesn't belong to us. and thanks to those tactless ppl who just commented that its the truth that the others did better then us so we deserved last??like hey i know i sound like a sore loser but imagine how i, how we feel when certain peeps told us that. Thanks to those who encouraged us, telling us that its not the postition that matters and yeah they thought we had done our best. No comparison but just a gentle comment on our efforts would be great.Cant believe i cried.As in i know i cry easily but never in public. guess its a combination of emotions due to the stepping down of the 6th house comm(amirul, shiva, rika, atiqah, hoon, stephanie, jen hun.thank you for making triton so wonderful), the ending of our cheerleading journey and the fact that we didnt get what we deserved.ok i sound like such a sore loser.ah anyway, never regretted joining cheerleading.The feelings cant be described so i can only say thanks to everyone who had made it such a memorable thing for me in my 2 year jc life.Greatly appreciate it.: )cause even winners lose sometimes.
SQUASH
haha love it like crazy.In the beginning, i'm afraid i joined because of the wrong reason but i'm glad i'm wrong. Because of squash, i met ppl that i can bond with. :)Hitting the black ball against the wall seems crazy but then the satisfaction is uber shiok. :) ah and the chalet was wonderful, fabulous, amazing and HAPPY.:) ah memories flooding my head now, the seniors are fab too.i guess the only sad thing was we were unable to get to know the seniors well BUT the chalet was a great bonding session.despite that being so,squash doesn't seem that complete yet.its like there are still some that are being neglected,they do not feel that they are part of the black ball family and i dont know, the bonding is like only within the excos and certain few?cliquey and i dont like it but thats life i guess.hope things get better..
life seems to be fufilled yet empty at this moment. or maybe busy but not emotionally secured is the right description?my over active imagination and mind is making me tired of everything that's happening and that's not a good thing, not at all.seems to be thinking too much, hoping too much but getting too little..
i'm confused.dont know why am i thinking all that cause its just plain impossible.ah hope everything can be over.soon.
Its a little late but happy new year to everyone(for those who even bother to read my blog)!!have not blogged for like 865 years so here i am, blogging.
okay, so in the past year, i have gone through my first major exam,O LEVELS.it was not as bad as i thought but then yeap i'm still afraid, scared, anxious and yes worried.
2008, a year that has a lot of ups and downs. problems such as friends,family,studies and of course the stupid four words.made new friends(such as MISS NA),encountered stuff that i do not even want to think or talk about it cause its just a plain waste of my time, had a job(finally treasure my parents for what they had done for our family) and lots of surprises.
i was stressed out the whole year round and the little problem increased the dying of my brain cells.studying was fun(in a way) but also tiring.formed LS and i AM (not was) the PRESIDENT.(like wow)haha.
had interesting expriences such as going to australia, boarding an aeroplane,fed dolphins, went sand tobaganning(?), the tangaloma desert,the wildlife park,the aquarium, ate lots of fabulous food, went to nice beaches,saw partial nude ppl(scary), ate lots of delicious food,sat on a jet cruiser,four-wheeled sand drive and went to the blue mountains and took a super steep ride without safety belts(my bag nearly dropped into the mountains due to newton discovery), pat lots of kangaroos and i learn a very important thing.koalas are not bears so we should not call them koala bears. :) took lots of interesting rides such as THE CLAW etc in movie world and dream world,went to a nice wineary(?) and taste at least 20 types of wine.had a very SMALL and cute bf(kai lun) who said he liked me, haha and yes i break up with him lol.
2008,made one mature as one would realise some stuff about ppl and learn that some are just not meant to be friends.understood the cruelty of rumours and the spreading of words that were not true at all.learnt that some things are just not meant to be no matter how much one wants it and if one has faith in you, they won't question you..
2008,the year i turn 16 and the last year of my secondary school education. laughter was heard and tears was shed in this school. disappointment felt not only in acadamics but also in cca and sp.i did not do well and had fears for it.the criticism and all made me felt that i was just a passerby.however, the ppl around me made up for it. not able to make up for what i feel but yes, they were there to encourage me.
sp, the one grp that i would never regret joining. they made me feel that i am a part of the sch, that without them ,temasek would not be fun at all. the events,activities or just meetings together make me happy.though i'm not really part of the leadership grp(and still unable to get over it now, silly me),sp will and always be a big part in my life.i learn skills and stuff that one is unable to find in the outside world.
wushu, another grp that i dont regret joining.although i have to admit i dont really like the scoldings. the trainings bonded me and my friends and made me more flexible. the gathering during dinner was fun and not to be missed after these 4 years. of course, our coach (wenda) that never failed to make us feel better.he is our coach, our teacher, our driver, our nanny and our loanshark.moreover he's our boss. :) i wouls miss the irritating juniors as well as the fun exercies after trainings.
lastly, the ppl around me. in 2008, many of them had given me alot of encouragement and support. they shared my joy, happiness and also my sadness.they studied with me, and were there for me whenever i need them.they cheered me up when i was moody and basically they are ppl who one would never forget.seriously i would like to thank all of them. no matter who you are, you have contributed a little to help me learn and grow and to be the person that i am today. its not nice to name ppl so yes i'll just thank everybody esp my family.dad, who always never fail to tell me,"you dont need to score very high.you just need to get 6 pts." and "we all knew you did your best so who cares about the results".mum, who is constantly worried about my health due to some medical problems and always cooked some healthy but yet disgusting soup for me to drink.lao gao*sis* who always answered my questions and although you always irritate me, you are still my lovable sister cause as you always say," you are the VIP to my evilness cause you cant be angry at me forever as we are sisters.":)
whew first time write so long(i think), so yeap all the best to everyone in 2009 and may we get good results.:)
i really really hope to get my desired results.
My great grandmother had passed away early in the morning.Well she had an age of 80 plus and i believed and hope she had a fufilled life. She had many kids, many grandchildren and many great grandchildren. She seems to be healthy when i saw her during chinese new year but that was 6 mths ago.She's gone. Just like that. Due to a stomachache, she was hospitalised off she went to the other side of the world.
When i heard the news, i dont know why but i felt shocked.Stunned.I'm not close to her and i see her like the most twice a year but i just feel weird. One life is gone.That means that she will never exist again.The body that has been alive for at least 8 decades will never produce any sound or make any movement.It just feels weird...
i wonder why she go to.what happens when you know you are going to die and never breathe again.to never enjoy the feeling of being alive. Lots of qns to be answered yet noone will be able to answer me.gosh i sound like some oldie.but again, i'm weird la so yeah normal for me to think all these. A waste of time but it just makes ppl wonder.
ok the main point is i wanted to go to her furneral but its in malysia and now is the exam peak period! i want to go back during the weekend just to offer my respects but something retarted and irritating came up.
go ahead and be a selfish brat.she's your great grandmother and you dont want to go back just because of a stupid PSP and its knda last minute?If its your funeral and your grandchildren etc didnt turn up just because they dont want to, i wonder how the freaking hell will you feel.She's your relative. It is a form of respect.you cant even understand this and you are a human being.We are born to have feelings and emotions and now you are doing this.Great, good for you.i didnt even complain and i'm the one that is having exams not you.So please TRY and be considerate for others. PLEASE AH.
Well Prelims are near and yet i'm not really feeling the stress.i wonder why..anyway i realised that i actually revise Physics more than my other sciences. MIRACLE OR WHAT? Physics has always been my worse subject *besides A math, Biology, Chemistry etc.oh yeah all of them are my worse subject.*
FOCUS LEE GAO NING FOCUS!!!!!!!
yeah there are alot of things going on in my life now like erm studies, school, studies and school and the list goes on and on...L.S
Can't seem to get bio into my head. like no matter how i try to glue the paper on to my head, it just keep coming off. (btw its ONLY a joke in case no one realise..)
Dedicated to Jailbird: hey i know you are very upset over the scolding matter and i dont really know how to console you but yeah if you need a listening ear, i'm here. Also here to entertain you!!:)
Sad to hear all these lives being torn away. They are still young, their future is bright and god played a joke on them. well hope they will find heaven a nice place to live in cause there will be no worries and it will be peace all day long.
while ppl out there are worring abt their lives, i am worrying abt my results.(what kind of a human am i??), yeap it is again disastrous and this time i actually thought that the papers were alright but i guess i think wrong.didnt really fail any subjects(though thats nothing to be happy about) but didnt score well either.i dont even have an A.i had a pathetic C for my e-math.can you believe it? its like elementary math and i cant even do well. i might as well go back to kindergarden and learn my basics again.oh well i actually passed my A math. yeap first time.(only for exams.i did pass ok for my tests).i shall work harder and try to get my distinction.but nevertheless, also a bit sad cause i believed that i had put in alot of effort for A math and i still got a C.and yes i passed physics by 0.4. like wow great achievement(i thought i screwed up the paper totally) and yes others scored way way better then me.Lots of them.SAD CASE.
after i get back my results, the first thing that came to my mind is study so hard for what?results still so pathetic.felt like giving up.really.i believed i have actually studied quite hard but in the end, nothing gained. NOTHING VENTURED,NOTHING GAINED should be change to ventured but no gained.
nvm should not give up and PERSEVERANCE IS THE ATTITUDE.thanks to alot of people who encouraged me and offered to teach me if i dont understand anything.really appreciate you guys f0r being there for me. really. and i'm here when you need me as well. always. :)
ok there is also fun stuff going on.went to EXPO with an aim to go to the popular fair but in the end, we went to the adidas fair and the food fair before proceeding to the popular.wanted to buy adidas stuff but too bad didnt bring money(KA CHING) and yes the food fair was amazing.regretted eating long john before going but nvm.Ate alot of samples(abit guilty la cause i really took a lot) but hey, i bought food as well.the chocolate waffle was superb, the popcorn chicken was nice and yes according to someone my legs are suan because i drank lime juice.LS.Singaporeans are really kiasu and especially those aunties,wow its amazing how thick their skin are.LOL mine is also thick as well cause i'm a Singaporean and proud to say so.The place is supper duper 100% plus chop stamp crowded. everyone is squeezing here and there and its like crossing a road with human as the vehicles.but yeah thats part of the fun. finally went to popular to digest before eating some more and bought 4 pens. wanted to buy a storybook but in the end read some cute book about character and whether you are an optismist that kind of thing and yeap we completed the whole book. It was interesting but i wonder whether is is true.should be huh we shall see. :) Went back to food fair and eat again.(i know i'm a glutton thats why i'm FAT at 100%.) No dinner at all and i felt bloated due to all the samples.went home after that and exercise at the exercise corner.seriously i think that exercise corner is more fun than playground. my mum, sis and her FRIEND accompanied me and we went down to play.LOL my mum is damm cute when she's playing with the equipment. no wonder i'm like crazy crazy cause she's crazy crazy as well. genes ah. in the end i injured my arm and its painful. i wonder where it goes wrong, its not like muscle cramp but..i also dont know.
anyway completed bio and 2 articles today.still have (30*2)articles to go.
GO GO JIA YOU! :)
post abit long but who cares,its for me. ;)