LAUGHTHER; the best medicine :D
Meet new friends, new classmates, new CCA *SQUASH(:*, got into TRITON housecomm(ITS GREEN!!) and a new thing.=)
Had quite alot of things bottled up in a sense.kinda like there's noone in this world who understand everything?as in maybe 90% but not everything.oh well, sad to say, i feel that i'm changing.In a bad way. I'm getting more and more impatient, more and more bad tempered and more and more naive in the sense i believe what others have said, resulting in me in having no stand or opinions of my own.AM I?i dont know.confused about what i'm thinking, confused about why am i even thinking like that in the first place.Had conflict/s within the class already and i'm kinda the middle person. I said dont involve me in it and yet, i'm still stuck in between. Luckily its over but then is it really truly over?Now that i thought of it, another one is already brewing up(pardon the broken english).
no offence to the ppl but then i think MJC is a great school (despite those mugger rumours cause i dont think it is that bad)and now it seems a little screwed because of well obviously the ppl.i think the problem lies with me la.
TRITON CHEERLEADING
missed everything about it.i was very disappointed with the results. I know we may not get first but last? THAT doesn't belong to us. and thanks to those tactless ppl who just commented that its the truth that the others did better then us so we deserved last??like hey i know i sound like a sore loser but imagine how i, how we feel when certain peeps told us that. Thanks to those who encouraged us, telling us that its not the postition that matters and yeah they thought we had done our best. No comparison but just a gentle comment on our efforts would be great.Cant believe i cried.As in i know i cry easily but never in public. guess its a combination of emotions due to the stepping down of the 6th house comm(amirul, shiva, rika, atiqah, hoon, stephanie, jen hun.thank you for making triton so wonderful), the ending of our cheerleading journey and the fact that we didnt get what we deserved.ok i sound like such a sore loser.ah anyway, never regretted joining cheerleading.The feelings cant be described so i can only say thanks to everyone who had made it such a memorable thing for me in my 2 year jc life.Greatly appreciate it.: )cause even winners lose sometimes.
SQUASH
haha love it like crazy.In the beginning, i'm afraid i joined because of the wrong reason but i'm glad i'm wrong. Because of squash, i met ppl that i can bond with. :)Hitting the black ball against the wall seems crazy but then the satisfaction is uber shiok. :) ah and the chalet was wonderful, fabulous, amazing and HAPPY.:) ah memories flooding my head now, the seniors are fab too.i guess the only sad thing was we were unable to get to know the seniors well BUT the chalet was a great bonding session.despite that being so,squash doesn't seem that complete yet.its like there are still some that are being neglected,they do not feel that they are part of the black ball family and i dont know, the bonding is like only within the excos and certain few?cliquey and i dont like it but thats life i guess.hope things get better..
life seems to be fufilled yet empty at this moment. or maybe busy but not emotionally secured is the right description?my over active imagination and mind is making me tired of everything that's happening and that's not a good thing, not at all.seems to be thinking too much, hoping too much but getting too little..
i'm confused.dont know why am i thinking all that cause its just plain impossible.ah hope everything can be over.soon.