GAONING; retarted ;D

2011-11-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

gd news:i'm getting over it.:)
well,getting over= not yet over but then at least i'm on the way right?!:)
haha ok in a kee siao mood now cause,as usual,no mood to study.
BUT the main point is i'm coming into terms with it so congrats to me!:)

2011-10-26T05:16:00.000-07:00

recently got used to blogging again cause having some emotional upheavals now.the sentence structure seems weird.anyway this place has been with me since sec 1?6 years.although i've always neglected it,its online stuff so it cant be deleted hah!hence the scary part but i can come back to it whenever i wants to.sry to twitter but i dont really think i have the capability to twit to ppl what i'm doing or thinking cause i dont even share it often with my close friends and family so why would i twit it for those who are following me.also to save myself from embarassement if noone follows me lol.one more mth to final terms.and i cant focus at all. cause of you.just found out some stuff which i regretted being so nosy because if i'm not, i wont be having this suffocated feeling.i wont feel so terrible.my mind wont be so occupied over what i've seen and keep hoping that i'm wrong.maybe i am cause i didnt see it that clearly.you asked what am i thinking abt.i answered ppl.then you ask who.well cant tell you the truth obviously. and you went on abt trying hard to get what you want.if i didnt try hard enough, it means i didnt want it that badly afterall.the point is, i did try.maybe its too subtle but what do you want me to do.tell you straight in the face?i told you things will change.you told me if i dont try, it will be square one anyway so no harm trying.trust me,in this case,things will change.told you again and again dont be so nice to me,dont treat me so well,i cannot accept it.you are actually making things worse because how do you expect me to well, forget when you keep reminding me.what do you want from me.doing all that then keeping things from me. yes i have no right to feel jealous or whatsoever but i thought we were close.well i'm actually using the word were so guess we're no longer close.

i went to your place to pass money to you because you said you're broke.dude im returning you money and not giving you money. you insisted on treating me when you're broke??i appreciate the thought but you need to take care of yourself first. i dont want you to have not enough money to spend hence returning it to you but you dont understand and said i looked down on you. please why would i do that. i hope thatyou can know your own limits and do what you can and have savings.argued with you for a super long time and i felt damm freaking stupid.you dont understand at all why i want to return it to you. it has always been one way treating because you dont let me treat you. you said you dont do that to everyone. then to who?i mentioned your close friends then you said no.then who do you treat me as.i'm just a friend,a close one at the best.like what i said, its ok if we dont go out anymore, im always the one that initiates anyway. the only thing that change will be you get to save your money.or maybe spend it on other ppl i dont know.do you even realised i care for you thats why i dont want you to spend your money so freely?you worked hard and your job is making you unhappy and you spend all at one go.you just dont understand. go and complain to other ppl or her then.its ok i'm prepared to not initiate anymore and this time, i mean it.making you feel so obligated to go out or even celebrate my birthday with me,im sorry.no worries, no more obligations because ive finally learnt it the hard way.if you really matter to someone, the person will make the effort to spend time with you no matter what. you just proved it when you said going to the event is a waste of money.i got the hint.and i cant believe i'm so blind.everything is right infront of me and i didnt see it.seriously,shoot me for being so blind.living in my own imaginary world sucks to the core cause when reality sinks in,i cant accept it.but i will soon enough.

2011-10-11T03:56:00.001-07:00

hmm deleted the previous post made because of reasons i dont know myself lol.just felt like deleting it i guess,cause it means i'm trying to erase stuff so that it wont bother me any more.

not bad,this place is like those things that the harry potter series used when they have too many things on their mind.it kinda remains intact when they want to look back on their overwhelming thoughts or memories.suddenly thought blog is like the same thing actually.oh well at least this is a freaking old blog so hopefully or luckily noone bothers to come here any more.now is all twitter and facebook anyway. too exposed for me haha! not that this is 100 percent safe cause its online afterall but i highly doubt ppl will go and look for it,or even rmb what i've written so yes still writing in it!although for like once in few mths but better than nothing la right.too lazy to write the old fashioned way too.

2011-08-16T00:41:00.000-07:00

almost a year and here i am back again.looking back at previous posts reminds me of how life has been when i'm schooling in jc,the unforgettable fun and stress.miss life when it's purely just having fun and studying.ccas were enjoyable and studying were just studying.couldnt get into the vet course that i wanted but at least i manages to get into a local uni so cant complain abt that can i.but uni felt so foreign,so not me.its a total new environment and i've used up my energy in sec sch and jc so now,i dont feel like making new friends.need to bid for modules,and tutorial balloting and even hope that there's someone to go to the classes or lects with.ah feel so pathetic.
i actually miss the working days.at least when i go home,i do not need to read up on what i need to tell the custs the next day.i have my friends ard me and all of us manage to get along quite well although we dont know each other before hand.i miss all of them.i miss the days where we go sing song,watch movies,have endless dinners and went to pubs.i miss us complaining abt our custs and workloads during lunches at those 3 places.i miss talking in the pantry.i miss walking over from one row to another gossiping.i miss emailing one another abt our plans.i really miss it.
i miss you.i really do and i cant tell you how much i did because i cant bring myself to tell you so.it will be a pressure and it'll affect our friendship and i've alrd used up all the patience that you have for me.there's so many things that i want to do for you,to say to you but i dont know how to express it.it always came out the wrong way and we will end u p arguing.i acidentally went upon your blog and saw what you felt for her.i dont feel angry for you.i feel sad.i felt the love that you had for her and something that i cant replace.i once thought that you may like me and maybe you did hinted but its never the same.you admitted that you will never put 100%into a relationship ever again cause of what happened and i know you blame yourself for it.please dont.i keep thinking abt you and hope that we can meet up everyday but recently, i just told you i wont be able to see you often.i dont know why i said that but you dont seem to care anyway.you said you missed me.i never ever said it to you before.however,it felt like its the other way round instead.just because i dont say it,it doesnt mean that i dont feel that.just because you did,it doesnt mean you do.talk is free.you may say that anyone and everyone so i'm not special to you anyway.you said before,the person you like may not understand you at all.it works both ways.according to you, i'm one of the few who understnds you or in fact understads you the most but you may not like me.so dont ask me those hypothetical qns and dont try and hold my hand and withdrew again.dont ask me out then be close to other ppl.i'm not angry.just sad that you cared abt others feeling disappointed more than i do.arent we all your friends?she may feel sad because she has to go home alone.then what abt me?i also go home alone.moreover,my hse is further.she has to go home early,ioffered to accompany you,you dont want me to because she'll feel sad.fine.thats what friends are for.i cant even blame yu outright because you meant well.so i became the bad person for even thinking this way.ah seriously.your name keep popping up in my head every few mins and sadly i dont believe thats the case for you.i've cried so many times for you althought you thought its only once.obviously i wont cry infront of you right.i'll seem weak if i do.ah how am i suppose to not initiate meet ups with you,not msg you or call you?i realise i keep finding excuses to call or msg just tosee your name appear in my phone and i'm tired of initiating.why is it always me that initiates.i'm like forcing you to reply anyway so here i am,going to try my best to not call you,not msg,not to ask you out.why must i became attached and used to you.you're the first tsider thati've thrown tantrums,revealed what i'm thinking and dont mind me being so annoying.and now,i've used u p all i have so you are rid of me.for good.i'm sorry.

2010-09-20T22:36:00.001-07:00

just realised that i laughed alot almost everyday,thanks to the animal gang lol.:) and the topics that we discussed is disgusting to the ttm but fun haha! 2 more paper 1 till the end of prelims and the long awaited holidays(after Asexual A levels).random but obsessed with someone recently,like kee siao sia but he's worth it!:)

i want to play squash!!cause i'm getting fat and i miss the sport and the people there. miss you?of course i do.:) haha disgusting shit.
cant wait to go havoc and go lots of places.my 8 months of holiday please come quickly!

2010-07-27T06:36:00.000-07:00

i'm scared.afraid.terrified of what's going to happen.shit to the ttm cause i really am at a loss.all the jia yous,dont give up and encouragement works.to a small extent.i appreciate all that but i guess it doesnt help much cause it all comes down to me and i need to overcome it alone.no choice huh its my future afterall.
lucky for me i have them to at least be beside me.:)my family is really awesome to the ttm,they are so worried abt me and did all the sweet and heartwarming stuff for me.:)and friends of course esp YJ.:)i want bubblewrap to destress!!

and i'm actually pissed off cause you you dont even treat me as a friend now.sure,with all the polite hello and byes and whatt happen to the making fun of each other?you can laugh and talk to others then your face just change when i talk,no wait when i try to talk to you.seriously,you are not suppose to be here anyway,wth man.luckily,i dont need to see you anymore cause theres little time left afterall.this is just so plain ridiculous and i'm getting all worked up and you dont even care anyway.stupid la.

I stopped fighting my inner demons.We are on the same side now.:)

2010-05-01T09:01:00.001-07:00

seriously,i miss it and its not even one week.but happily, we keep meeting up so it kinda substituted it.:) haha and jbb,i cant believe we actually did what i thought never would happen.shocked to the ttm haha!:)

2010-05-01T09:01:00.000-07:00

shucks its over.just in a blink of an eye.squash the cca that i enjoyed and never regret joining,although it wasnt really my intention to join it in the first place but luckily i chose it due to various reasons. :) fate or what?cause i wanted to join volleyball during JC but after knowing about squash, yeah the passion came.:)All the trainings,the tired-ness,outings have not been put into waste because we got FIFTH!:):):):) AND it is for MJC SQUASHERS not just the girls and yeap we created a legend.:)
ah when we won fifth on 28 APRIL, it was a happy and sad moment because although we had achieved what we desired,it marks the end of our squash journey in JC. and on fri,when the guys won,the emotion was kinda overwhelming and felt like crying cause our efforts,the past 1 year trainings have not gone into waste but everything will be over soon.I dont want it to be but for A levels we must. ah but i wont give it up,it holds too many memories for me.:)
To janice,glenda,shannon,jia ying, an ting,chelsea,thanks for mking squash so enjoyable and meaningful for me.there were always laughter at courts due to all of you and squash always make sch a better place. i'm not good with words so thank you is the only way i can show my appreciation of you guys.although youall wont see it but yeah.:)
Thanks to the guys as well who were there to entertain(yes including laughing AT me although everone do that) and taught us so we can improve.:)
Thanks to Mr Yao who i regret didnt join earlier because he is such a wonderful,nice and encouraging teacher who never fails to motivate us. Thanks for everything especially the sparkling H2O and Nihon.:) an dr Vars and of course coach.
shit,i really dont like the feeling of not being able to play squash often cause sch will be just plain boring without it.No more laughing at the squash courts,eating pokey,joking or even practising and playing matches and those ridiculously funny doubles..
guess squash has really become part of my life and well..i miss it now.

2010-03-04T06:31:00.000-08:00

I'm back in action.my foot.lol and blogger reallys feels a little like diary without the privacy part cause i seldom wrote(or type) in it but noone( or the ppl who i dont know for what reasons reads it cause its damm weird for them to read my blog) reads it so yeap you're still safe blogger.i hope ah.
anyway life is pure tiring cause of the AWESOME A's.yeah sense the irony or scarasm or whichever tone.ok with squash and hse comm stuff too but yeah i put myself into it so no one to blame and just strive on.shucks but really becoming more and more lazy and have alot of sleep debt to clear and millions of things to do with the tests and homework and competiton and revision(if i ever did any) and only 6 mths plus to A LEVELS.my JC life pass super fast and yeah i'll miss everything in it but i cant wait and hope to get into university of sydney and do what i've always wanted to do.VETERINARIAN HERE I COME!but the results required ABIT high so yeap JIA YOU!(yah yah go petrol station)and self encouragement sounds psychotic to me now.
Hope Triton can do well in the upcoming events cause all of us really tried.with the hse pride and all, i hope we can do it.as long as we try our best huh.although that may not always be the case but nvm.:)
and just deleted a whole paragraph of words.smart or what lol.at least noone will know and i feel better.:)

haha and jbb,may what i want come true lol.

2010-01-07T06:56:00.000-08:00

2010 HAS ARRIVED.
Big Deal.haha yes its a damm big deal cause the terrible A Levels are here AND there's the A division AND AND theres hse comm and events to plan AND AND AND its enough to make me feel tired.Busy and tired and the year haven even really start.Like what the hell right.

Oh and some are asking me abt the previous post which i was surprised cause i thought my blog was dead hence the post BUT apparently that wasnt the case.anyway just to clarify(if someone or something accidentally or on purpose read my blog), that nervous thing was a sudden thing and its nothing(kay it rhymes) so yeah.my bad too huh cause blogs wasnt that private,and that i should have realise 2 years ago.

and i'm going to a new class.when i've finally got used to 09S116.sad or what.SAD.ah hope everything will turn out well in whichever way.BLAH.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:
1.Be more hardworking and stop slacking.
2.Be more patient and stop throwing tempers at ppl.
3.DO NOT THINK TOO MUCH.
4.Train harder.
5.Lose weight.(is it counted?)
6.Stop saying things without thinking(resulting in ppl saying you suck IQ)
7.Dont be so anti social
8.Accept ppl flaws cause you have alot too and its uncountable.
9.Be nicer to my family and spend more time with them.:)
10. HAH SECRET. :) :)

JIA YOU JIA YOU!

looking forward.

2009-10-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

so 4 months have passed by in just a blink of an eye.or in reality many blinks of an eye but whatever huh.by the way WHATEVER is the most hated word in the universe which of course has no link once again.
PROMOS are finally over.ok it has been over for 2 weeks but then i'm still in a relieved mood althoug the results sucks to the core.. I dont think i will retain and i hope i wont retain but then life is never about what you want anyway so face it man.i hope DUDUS can turn to DUDSS becase chem had totally no hope now and i hope econs can be nice.afraid of dropping.not only a subject but a cca that i've came to love and treasure.sucks right if i have to give up one.i dont know which to give up econs or bio but i hope i wont have a chance to ponder over this question.should i follow my drean which has always been there since primary sch or should i take my A level into account and just chooce a subject that is easy to study.ah shit hate thinking about all these crap.and can i get into sch team?i hope and think i can but then will i do well?i dont know.life is full of uncertainities(or how do you spell it) and i dont want to drop squash.sad to say but i will choose squash over house comm but glad to say our hse comm is getting bonded.:)in the beginning i thought i'll feel very put of place as i dont belong there initially but then i'm glad i'm wrong.MOVIE next week with the other crazy 6 ppl but no PHOBIA 2 please.afraid that 09S116 is gonna disappear and we haven even have a freaking class shirt.holidays gonna be damm busy with revision,OGL,dances and squash.busy but happy i hope.

serioulsy why the hell am i being troubled over it?you are none of my business and why should i care and feel upset when you keep mentioning her.and i cant believe i actually felt nervous when i saw you.when you suddenly popped up infront of me out of the blue.we cant get along anyway.ah shut up gaoning or whatever you are thinking cause go on dreaming about it and you will just feel sad.oh get a life gn cause he's totally not worth it.or is he?shucks.

2009-06-13T06:59:00.001-07:00

wow ok its been like almost 5 mths since i've last blogged.i wanted to blog about me getting my supposedly sounds-nice-7-distinctions-in-Ols-but-in-actual-fact-it-wasn't-that-good-results, me getting into the school that i wanted(MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE) and alot of things.
Meet new friends, new classmates, new CCA *SQUASH(:*, got into TRITON housecomm(ITS GREEN!!) and a new thing.=)
Had quite alot of things bottled up in a sense.kinda like there's noone in this world who understand everything?as in maybe 90% but not everything.oh well, sad to say, i feel that i'm changing.In a bad way. I'm getting more and more impatient, more and more bad tempered and more and more naive in the sense i believe what others have said, resulting in me in having no stand or opinions of my own.AM I?i dont know.confused about what i'm thinking, confused about why am i even thinking like that in the first place.Had conflict/s within the class already and i'm kinda the middle person. I said dont involve me in it and yet, i'm still stuck in between. Luckily its over but then is it really truly over?Now that i thought of it, another one is already brewing up(pardon the broken english).
no offence to the ppl but then i think MJC is a great school (despite those mugger rumours cause i dont think it is that bad)and now it seems a little screwed because of well obviously the ppl.i think the problem lies with me la.

TRITON CHEERLEADING
missed everything about it.i was very disappointed with the results. I know we may not get first but last? THAT doesn't belong to us. and thanks to those tactless ppl who just commented that its the truth that the others did better then us so we deserved last??like hey i know i sound like a sore loser but imagine how i, how we feel when certain peeps told us that. Thanks to those who encouraged us, telling us that its not the postition that matters and yeah they thought we had done our best. No comparison but just a gentle comment on our efforts would be great.Cant believe i cried.As in i know i cry easily but never in public. guess its a combination of emotions due to the stepping down of the 6th house comm(amirul, shiva, rika, atiqah, hoon, stephanie, jen hun.thank you for making triton so wonderful), the ending of our cheerleading journey and the fact that we didnt get what we deserved.ok i sound like such a sore loser.ah anyway, never regretted joining cheerleading.The feelings cant be described so i can only say thanks to everyone who had made it such a memorable thing for me in my 2 year jc life.Greatly appreciate it.: )cause even winners lose sometimes.

SQUASH
haha love it like crazy.In the beginning, i'm afraid i joined because of the wrong reason but i'm glad i'm wrong. Because of squash, i met ppl that i can bond with. :)Hitting the black ball against the wall seems crazy but then the satisfaction is uber shiok. :) ah and the chalet was wonderful, fabulous, amazing and HAPPY.:) ah memories flooding my head now, the seniors are fab too.i guess the only sad thing was we were unable to get to know the seniors well BUT the chalet was a great bonding session.despite that being so,squash doesn't seem that complete yet.its like there are still some that are being neglected,they do not feel that they are part of the black ball family and i dont know, the bonding is like only within the excos and certain few?cliquey and i dont like it but thats life i guess.hope things get better..

life seems to be fufilled yet empty at this moment. or maybe busy but not emotionally secured is the right description?my over active imagination and mind is making me tired of everything that's happening and that's not a good thing, not at all.seems to be thinking too much, hoping too much but getting too little..

i'm confused.dont know why am i thinking all that cause its just plain impossible.ah hope everything can be over.soon.

2009-01-18T09:18:00.000-08:00

i suddenly miss the beautifools, like it suddenly hit me abt how close we were 2 years back.but now, we kinda drifted apart.went to our beautifools blog and i missed those days. when one talks abt one thing, the other would just join in. we are a grp.although the grp is formed due to some reason(which i dont think i should mention it since it's so long ago), WE ARE STILL A GRP.i miss my girls.sounds weird to call them my girls but yeah they are mine, in a way.emotionally attached to them.no matter what happen.:)

2009-01-01T23:45:00.000-08:00

LOL i guess its lucky that i can proclaim my blog being dead so i can just write lote of stuff without noone knowing.
Its a little late but happy new year to everyone(for those who even bother to read my blog)!!have not blogged for like 865 years so here i am, blogging.
okay, so in the past year, i have gone through my first major exam,O LEVELS.it was not as bad as i thought but then yeap i'm still afraid, scared, anxious and yes worried.
2008, a year that has a lot of ups and downs. problems such as friends,family,studies and of course the stupid four words.made new friends(such as MISS NA),encountered stuff that i do not even want to think or talk about it cause its just a plain waste of my time, had a job(finally treasure my parents for what they had done for our family) and lots of surprises.
i was stressed out the whole year round and the little problem increased the dying of my brain cells.studying was fun(in a way) but also tiring.formed LS and i AM (not was) the PRESIDENT.(like wow)haha.
had interesting expriences such as going to australia, boarding an aeroplane,fed dolphins, went sand tobaganning(?), the tangaloma desert,the wildlife park,the aquarium, ate lots of fabulous food, went to nice beaches,saw partial nude ppl(scary), ate lots of delicious food,sat on a jet cruiser,four-wheeled sand drive and went to the blue mountains and took a super steep ride without safety belts(my bag nearly dropped into the mountains due to newton discovery), pat lots of kangaroos and i learn a very important thing.koalas are not bears so we should not call them koala bears. :) took lots of interesting rides such as THE CLAW etc in movie world and dream world,went to a nice wineary(?) and taste at least 20 types of wine.had a very SMALL and cute bf(kai lun) who said he liked me, haha and yes i break up with him lol.
2008,made one mature as one would realise some stuff about ppl and learn that some are just not meant to be friends.understood the cruelty of rumours and the spreading of words that were not true at all.learnt that some things are just not meant to be no matter how much one wants it and if one has faith in you, they won't question you..
2008,the year i turn 16 and the last year of my secondary school education. laughter was heard and tears was shed in this school. disappointment felt not only in acadamics but also in cca and sp.i did not do well and had fears for it.the criticism and all made me felt that i was just a passerby.however, the ppl around me made up for it. not able to make up for what i feel but yes, they were there to encourage me.
sp, the one grp that i would never regret joining. they made me feel that i am a part of the sch, that without them ,temasek would not be fun at all. the events,activities or just meetings together make me happy.though i'm not really part of the leadership grp(and still unable to get over it now, silly me),sp will and always be a big part in my life.i learn skills and stuff that one is unable to find in the outside world.
wushu, another grp that i dont regret joining.although i have to admit i dont really like the scoldings. the trainings bonded me and my friends and made me more flexible. the gathering during dinner was fun and not to be missed after these 4 years. of course, our coach (wenda) that never failed to make us feel better.he is our coach, our teacher, our driver, our nanny and our loanshark.moreover he's our boss. :) i wouls miss the irritating juniors as well as the fun exercies after trainings.

lastly, the ppl around me. in 2008, many of them had given me alot of encouragement and support. they shared my joy, happiness and also my sadness.they studied with me, and were there for me whenever i need them.they cheered me up when i was moody and basically they are ppl who one would never forget.seriously i would like to thank all of them. no matter who you are, you have contributed a little to help me learn and grow and to be the person that i am today. its not nice to name ppl so yes i'll just thank everybody esp my family.dad, who always never fail to tell me,"you dont need to score very high.you just need to get 6 pts." and "we all knew you did your best so who cares about the results".mum, who is constantly worried about my health due to some medical problems and always cooked some healthy but yet disgusting soup for me to drink.lao gao*sis* who always answered my questions and although you always irritate me, you are still my lovable sister cause as you always say," you are the VIP to my evilness cause you cant be angry at me forever as we are sisters.":)

whew first time write so long(i think), so yeap all the best to everyone in 2009 and may we get good results.:)

i really really hope to get my desired results.

2008-08-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

Life is again unpredictable.when i was studying in the library today, i called my mum and heard a bad news.
My great grandmother had passed away early in the morning.Well she had an age of 80 plus and i believed and hope she had a fufilled life. She had many kids, many grandchildren and many great grandchildren. She seems to be healthy when i saw her during chinese new year but that was 6 mths ago.She's gone. Just like that. Due to a stomachache, she was hospitalised off she went to the other side of the world.
When i heard the news, i dont know why but i felt shocked.Stunned.I'm not close to her and i see her like the most twice a year but i just feel weird. One life is gone.That means that she will never exist again.The body that has been alive for at least 8 decades will never produce any sound or make any movement.It just feels weird...
i wonder why she go to.what happens when you know you are going to die and never breathe again.to never enjoy the feeling of being alive. Lots of qns to be answered yet noone will be able to answer me.gosh i sound like some oldie.but again, i'm weird la so yeah normal for me to think all these. A waste of time but it just makes ppl wonder.

ok the main point is i wanted to go to her furneral but its in malysia and now is the exam peak period! i want to go back during the weekend just to offer my respects but something retarted and irritating came up.

go ahead and be a selfish brat.she's your great grandmother and you dont want to go back just because of a stupid PSP and its knda last minute?If its your funeral and your grandchildren etc didnt turn up just because they dont want to, i wonder how the freaking hell will you feel.She's your relative. It is a form of respect.you cant even understand this and you are a human being.We are born to have feelings and emotions and now you are doing this.Great, good for you.i didnt even complain and i'm the one that is having exams not you.So please TRY and be considerate for others. PLEASE AH.

2008-08-10T06:36:00.001-07:00

Due to the call of my many FANS, i've decided to update my blog!*cause they complained that they are sick of reading my earthquake thing over and over again*.
Well Prelims are near and yet i'm not really feeling the stress.i wonder why..anyway i realised that i actually revise Physics more than my other sciences. MIRACLE OR WHAT? Physics has always been my worse subject *besides A math, Biology, Chemistry etc.oh yeah all of them are my worse subject.*

FOCUS LEE GAO NING FOCUS!!!!!!!

yeah there are alot of things going on in my life now like erm studies, school, studies and school and the list goes on and on...L.S
Can't seem to get bio into my head. like no matter how i try to glue the paper on to my head, it just keep coming off. (btw its ONLY a joke in case no one realise..)

Dedicated to Jailbird: hey i know you are very upset over the scolding matter and i dont really know how to console you but yeah if you need a listening ear, i'm here. Also here to entertain you!!:)

2008-05-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

life is unpredictable. The recent Sichuan earthquake has killed millions and this time it is worse as it is the students' lives that has been taken away..one second before, they were happily studying, and the next,they were gone.forever. their parents' hearts have been torn into million pieces. Many were crying and those who survived, most of their limbs have to be amputated. They have to suffer the consequence of heaven's joke.
Sad to hear all these lives being torn away. They are still young, their future is bright and god played a joke on them. well hope they will find heaven a nice place to live in cause there will be no worries and it will be peace all day long.

while ppl out there are worring abt their lives, i am worrying abt my results.(what kind of a human am i??), yeap it is again disastrous and this time i actually thought that the papers were alright but i guess i think wrong.didnt really fail any subjects(though thats nothing to be happy about) but didnt score well either.i dont even have an A.i had a pathetic C for my e-math.can you believe it? its like elementary math and i cant even do well. i might as well go back to kindergarden and learn my basics again.oh well i actually passed my A math. yeap first time.(only for exams.i did pass ok for my tests).i shall work harder and try to get my distinction.but nevertheless, also a bit sad cause i believed that i had put in alot of effort for A math and i still got a C.and yes i passed physics by 0.4. like wow great achievement(i thought i screwed up the paper totally) and yes others scored way way better then me.Lots of them.SAD CASE.

after i get back my results, the first thing that came to my mind is study so hard for what?results still so pathetic.felt like giving up.really.i believed i have actually studied quite hard but in the end, nothing gained. NOTHING VENTURED,NOTHING GAINED should be change to ventured but no gained.

nvm should not give up and PERSEVERANCE IS THE ATTITUDE.thanks to alot of people who encouraged me and offered to teach me if i dont understand anything.really appreciate you guys f0r being there for me. really. and i'm here when you need me as well. always. :)

ok there is also fun stuff going on.went to EXPO with an aim to go to the popular fair but in the end, we went to the adidas fair and the food fair before proceeding to the popular.wanted to buy adidas stuff but too bad didnt bring money(KA CHING) and yes the food fair was amazing.regretted eating long john before going but nvm.Ate alot of samples(abit guilty la cause i really took a lot) but hey, i bought food as well.the chocolate waffle was superb, the popcorn chicken was nice and yes according to someone my legs are suan because i drank lime juice.LS.Singaporeans are really kiasu and especially those aunties,wow its amazing how thick their skin are.LOL mine is also thick as well cause i'm a Singaporean and proud to say so.The place is supper duper 100% plus chop stamp crowded. everyone is squeezing here and there and its like crossing a road with human as the vehicles.but yeah thats part of the fun. finally went to popular to digest before eating some more and bought 4 pens. wanted to buy a storybook but in the end read some cute book about character and whether you are an optismist that kind of thing and yeap we completed the whole book. It was interesting but i wonder whether is is true.should be huh we shall see. :) Went back to food fair and eat again.(i know i'm a glutton thats why i'm FAT at 100%.) No dinner at all and i felt bloated due to all the samples.went home after that and exercise at the exercise corner.seriously i think that exercise corner is more fun than playground. my mum, sis and her FRIEND accompanied me and we went down to play.LOL my mum is damm cute when she's playing with the equipment. no wonder i'm like crazy crazy cause she's crazy crazy as well. genes ah. in the end i injured my arm and its painful. i wonder where it goes wrong, its not like muscle cramp but..i also dont know.

anyway completed bio and 2 articles today.still have (30*2)articles to go.
GO GO JIA YOU! :)

post abit long but who cares,its for me. ;)

2008-05-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

i'm neither here nor there.

MYE ending soon.left three more papers and i'm here typing away cause its the weekend and i'm sick of studying. Lack of sleep has make me become irritating * or i've always been that way* and yeah talking crap all the way.felt a little prepared for the exams but just a little. dont think i will score very well but at least i think i tried huh. YEA SELF MOTIVATION!

cant wait for exams to end then i wont feel so stressed and yes i wont have so many pimples.

heard some stuff and stupid me keep on asking. in the end i felt worse cause of the replies i receive.i think i should just give up cause there will be no happy ending. just wistful thinking.

ITS BETTER TO BE KEPT IN THE DARK then knowing the facts. i shall learn the 'ostrich strategy' where i just put my head in the soil and thinks that since i cant see or hear others, they wont be able to see or hear me as well. seems stupid but you will feel better.:) but the problem is i dont really like ostrich even though they can run like damn fast. dolphins will be the best!

babbling on and on...

2008-04-17T04:37:00.000-07:00

i keep thinking about it..all day all night.
lots of things but there's two main things on my mind.
one a living thing one is not.
felt so demoralized nowadays.studied so hard and what happen?my results is one of the worse in the class.sometimes i wonder whther i really put in my utmost effort.did i?i really dont know the answer to this question.Ols are near and i dont know what to do at all.seems like i'm the only one unable to absorb anything and well i have no motivation now.
talked to my mum about my horrendous results ytd and told her that i felt that studying was a waste of my time.she told me that this the only the beginning and well no choice. LIFE GOES ON.perserverance. she called me by my name(a bit weird la as she always call other names) and she said that from young i am a person who is afraid to lose.just like the wushu competiton. i know i have no chance of winning at all and i dont wanna humilate myself but frankly speaking, i'm afraid of losing. no courage to admit defeat at all.like studies, i studied but i get one of the worse marks ever and i felt that its not worth it at all.

anybody there to lend a shoulder to me?make sure its broad cause yeah my head is big.=)

2008-03-09T07:43:00.000-07:00

i dont know what am i thinking now but yes i regetted what i had wrote in the previous post.Bitchy of me to write all that and i admit that i'm just being a narrow-minded idiot but i dont know..do i still want our friendship?YES.but sometimes thats really how i feel...maybe its just in your character maybe you are just being you and i'm reading too much into it..shit now i feel that i'm the one who is the bad person if not why would i be envious or in a more harsh word jealous of these things?you had been a nice if not quite good friend to me but ARGGH really have mixed feelings now.i'm so retarded..may everyone forget abt that post cause yes i think i'm just feeling irritated that day. and i said that i'm a horrible person. never ever think that i'm a nice person cause i'm not.really.i'm just a person with high expectations of everyone, expecting everyone to be perfect when i'm not worthy enoughy to be a friend.i apologised to the person out there even though you did not see the post.

2008-03-08T07:40:00.000-08:00

i cant believe you are just so.....i dunno whats the word to describe you.
i believe our friendship is kinda fake. you may tell me everything but that doesnt mean that i told you the same.you know why?cause sometimes i even regret telling you stuff as later i will be worried about whether you will tell them to other ppl just like the way you told me their secrets. I never have these problems with my close friends.and yes you may seem popular, you are the close friend of everybody but does the opposite gender matter so much to you?you have a bf for goodness sake and if your bf know that you are so close to the guys what would he think?you told me that alot of guys like you and yes good for you it means that you are a nice person etc etc. BUT have you ever realise that you are giving the guys the wrong msg by just keep going out with them alone?yeah to others it may seem jealousy and i admit that i am a little envious but seriously, think abt your attitude.i dont no ,i guess i'm fake in our friendship too and sometimes i wonder whether i'm the one who is being too paranoid or just too fussy.however you proved me wrong again and again that you really are these kind of ppl who plainly cannot survive without trying to know more ppl, telling other ppl your friends' secrets so that they may think that they are close to you.does the number of friends matter to you so much?i'm just spilling my guts out now and once again i think twice abt my thoughts.if you are not a nice person, a flirty person why would so many ppl wanna be your friends?i guess you are not flirty, just want to be very gd friends with the opposite gender but i assume that what are you wanting is to be the center of attention...i dont no,to you it may seem normal to go out with you being the only girl while others are all guys mostly all the time, to watch movie, to eat, to play but to me, i guess itd just weird.you are not flirting with them but you are in another kind of way?
i guess i'm not making sense now but yeah as i repeat again this is MY blog MY diary and yes its just for me to vent my frustrations. i may not blog on happy days cause well to me memories are enough but i need to release my *bad energy* so that i will not think abt them and be a nice person.(i try my best huh). to the person whom i'm talking abt, i dont no whether you will see this since my blog is quite dead but i dont think you will know who you are since i hide my feelings quite well.and yes now i feel that i'm a hypocrite and to speak the truth i'm a horrible person actually.recently i notices the bad points abt the ppl around me and yes i agree that noone is perfect cause look at me,i'm a life example of how imperfect one can be but well i just cant help thinking that this person isnt as nice or a good as i think he or she is.should i still be a gd friend of him or her?(yes i'm actually talking to myself when i'm typing these. i guess i'm just a weird weird person.in other words, abnormal or just weirdo)
:)

Thoughts..

2008-02-28T05:07:00.000-08:00

Today is another day that i believed, had made alot of temasekians think about our own attitude and behaviour.This morning, i was shocked to hear that there are four fighting cases within a week and there are also complaints from the citizens living in the nearby neighbourhood.The upper sec students had a special meeting in the hall today and almost all the staff memebers were there.Mrs Ong, Mdm Tan, Mr Oh ,Mr Toh and Mr Sara addressed us on the behaviour issue.Mdm tan and Mr Oh cried when they spoke to us.i dont know abt the rest of you guys out there but i felt the teachers' love for TMS and yes i cried when i heard what they said.They reminded us of the effort that our seniors had put in to build up the reputation of TMS and now we are destroying it with our own bare hands.How horrible can we be?We go to sch for what?to study and make friends, learn new stuff or to go there to break the sch rules,act cool and show off?Think twice. Most of you will choose the first option but i'm sure many of you had actually DO the things in the second option.I dont no why but the first thing that came to my mind is the phrase"Rules are like plates, meant to be broken".Weird huh?i guess i'm a bit motivated to study hard and do TMS proud.but well we shall see...

and recently i feel *second class* again.Firstly my results sucks.Why?cause lazy.Secondly, I'm not participating in the wushu competiton and i'm the only sec 4. Why?cause i suck at it.Thirdly, SC.not an exco get left out.why?cause not responsible and dont have leadership skills.ah pessomistic again!
Dont no why but feel very very left out these few days.no cliques in class is a good and bad thing.Good cause everyone can mix with anybody. Bad cause no good friend to wait for you to go recess together.seems like i'm the only one in class who tends to go recess alone..

just talk to Scandal 3 days ago and had alot of fun talking to her. We are very very alike Scandal!=) realise that i'm not the only one who think too much and yes i'm actually not bonkers.=D

just feeling down these few days huh....

...

2008-02-21T04:49:00.000-08:00

ok another coincidence. I blogged when Singapore won the Youth Olympics.
it seems that i always choose weird days to blog but who cares?=)

i hate it when i keep getting distracted in class because of you.i will think abt the past when we can well play and talk and smile at each other.no weird weird thing in the air.i rmb very clearly the time when we can just go out and well noone will comment.but now because of..........yes basically now is just IGNORE.so nice of you to treat me like this.so you feel embarassed but have you ever thought how would i feel?ARGGh you retarted person i cant believe i'm writing all these things.i guess i've changed.not in character,personality but in........somehow it changes overtime.its totally impossible for it to come true but IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING*quote from adidas*see i make sense too.or in that case dollars.KA CHING KA CHING(byw thats the money sound)
ok sidetrack but yeah suddenly feel uncomfortable writing it down.keeping your emotions bottled up is no good cause someday you will explode like the cheese sauseges in my oven.but no choice nowhere to vent cause (yes dont be surprise to hear or in that case see)i dont really tell everything to my friends although they are my friends.

oh well too much emotional stuff.ok i'm pissed off this morning cause lin lao shi(the HMT teacher) reprimanded me yeesee and chloe for blah blah blah during assembly.she even condiscated yees badge. ok i admit we were in the wrong as we break the sch rules but i feel that she should not be so erm unreasonable.its like she is using her temper to teach.if she is in a good mood she can forgive you for everything but when she is in a bad mood, too bad you will just get a harsh tongue lashing from her.sometimes i cant even figure out whether she is a gd teacher.and yes i cant figure out friendship now too.

and i pray with all my heart that i hope miss neo will get well soon. i can feel her sadness, her fear of death and everything when she tell us the news. after she told us the news, she cried.i guess it pained alot of us to see one of our favourite teachers break down infront of us and i believed some of us cried too. the whole period i was not thinking abt my results but abt miss neo. She is so young, so full of life so energetic but now this happen. life is really unpridictable..(and GOD please please pleae let miss neo get well soon)

Valentine's day

2008-02-14T05:16:00.000-08:00

ok i finally blog again and coincidentally its on Valentine's Day.
Happy Valentines Day to all singles and couples out there.=))
well i guess its been quite long since i've blogged and theres lots of things to update but it doesnt really matter now since its in the past.
ok random thoughts..
1.i want to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd
2.i want to go out with my friends and have fun, talk cock(sry a bit crude), sing song play mahjong.
3.i want all the tests to be over.
4.i want to have a long long talk with yiinshin and veron to catch up on recent stuff.
5.i wish our friendship can be like before.
6.i wonder why am i such a loner in class
7.i dont wanna go for training tmr.
8. i love my chocolates!
9.i feel tired.
10.i wonder why my results sucks.
11.ok today is valentines day so yeah noone to celebrate with me.(although my friends are good too)
yeap so many random thoughts.ah it feels so much better to say it out.=)
gaoning shall study very very hard although now it seems like all words and no action.
ok i shall find one fine day to blog again so bye.=))

study study study

2007-09-14T07:18:00.001-07:00

ok i'm just tired now but in the mood to blog. so Exams are just around the corner and i feel that i'm not preparing enough. either everyone is rushing home to study or studying with friends. whereas i have no one to study with.pathetic?kinda huh.when i ask someone they are already booked or just wanna study alone. nvm i shall rely on myself then.since they teach self reliance in sch so lets just put it to use:)
sep holidays were way over but i just wanna say that i finally know what does it mean to have your parents understanding you and supporting you.
despite my horrendous results(which had made me cry whenever someone talked to me abt it on 31AUG) my beloved dad said these to me,"we know you have tried your best and we know you are disappointed. but rmb this does not reflect your true potential and i know you will show it by end of this year.btw you wanna eat durian?i bought it just for you."okay it may seem nothing to you but it just give me the motivation yeah. and this year my dad did not even scold me once for my results.YES NOT EVEN ONCE.isn't it nice of him??? thats why i love him so much haha.
eh i'm just thinking abt something. am i really second class?as in erm..all sorts of stuff.when ppl go out they will ask the person beside me. until i reminded them that i'm there too, then they will ask me.for leadership stuff,ok once again everyone will ask me this question,"why are you not in exco?"well trust me if i know the answer i'll answer you but the point is i really dunno and i dont wanna think abt it too. in the family, my sis will be the one that my cousins care abt and if she's not there then here i am to replace her.in friendships... i'm just not sure.
am i lacking in confidence?i think so but sometimes i believe that if i'm not confident why would i speak up in the class so many times?why would i do stuff that...eh requires a little bravery?
ok suddenly i have no mood to talk abt any of these kind of stuff . and yes i'm keeping them to myself as i'm typing them out in my blog.in case anyone didnt realise thats what a blog is for, to show your daily life*for some* and to express your feeling through an easier way of typing since ppl like me will get sick of writing in a dairy after one week.=)
off to have a good night sleep and trying my best to forget everything including..and focus on my EOY.should be weeks after i blog again huh.gd luck ppl.

what is love?

2007-08-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

ok i know this is very random of me but today when i came home my mum ask me a question."what is love?"
i was cooking my dinner when she asked me that.*but thats not the point yeah*
it is just a three word question but no one can answer this question. at least no one that i know of.
isn't it weird? i mean everyone have different answers for it but sometime the answers contradict each other. quote from girl A," when i see him my heart beat very fast then i dunno what to say" girl B said," i feel happy when i'm with him and we can communicate very well with each other."
CONCLUSION :this thing call love is way confusing than what we think. but then in the first place who said it is simple? except maybe the song from Jay Chou which states*jian dan ai*
=) =) =)
see sometimes i make sense too.

Btw i wanna apologise to wenda. It may seem weird cause i did not do anything wrong but i just feel like saying that to him. Look at us the sec 3s. did we put in the effort to train? yes we did. But did we put in out utmost effort to train? i'm not sure whether the answer will be positive.
i'm sorry to say this but i believe the wushu team will disband after a few years time. we have a nice coach *at least compared to the previous one* and i believe he treat us like his own children. today we nearly make him cry. i saw that his eyes were red but i did not tell anyone this.i guess he have too much faith in us that we can do what he wants us to do within a few mins but we are not that smart in picking up the skills. At least i'm not that smart to do so.
He teaches us the moves, he repeats the moves three times and thats it. we are expected to know how to do it after that. He wants us to do well but.........we are disappointing him.
He even gave back his pay check to the school cause he feels that he do not deserved the money. Is he a good coach or what? after scolding almost everyone, he walked away to cool down. Looking at his back, i can see stress and sadness. As we always say he is our coach aka our nanny aka our driver aka our loan shark and he treats us to meals. not only once but a few times to rerward and comfort us after we did not do well in the competiton.
he tell us not to dwell on the past and train hard so that we can do better in the future.did we managed to do so? i'm afraid to say the answer. WE all said that we will try our best and do wenda proud but did we really do so? we all know the answers in our heart.
i want to make him proud of us but i seriously lack the energy to do so. so what if i have the motivation?when i do something wrong i will panic and screw up other stuff.i tend to tense up infront og him and forget about all the moves that i had tried to memorise. i really have the memory of a....................erm i forget which animal has the worse memory but lets just put an animal there huh?someday i'll find out the answer. yeah i just have to let this whole thing out. It hurts me when he says i have no energy to scold neither do i want to scold you guys anymore. It is so depressing when he said that like he totally give up on us already...

ah lets not talk about that anymore.erm good news and bad news for the same subject.good news: i got top in class for bio with cheryl foo.bad news: my overall still sucks. i really donno whether to laugh or cry. But i have to start revision!!!!!!!!!!!!
is one month enough? STRESS I S BEHIND MY BACK!*thats why i always hunched. its not my fault kay*=P

.........

2007-07-28T05:32:00.000-07:00

oh well i guess even though my blog and i are back together again we don't really interact much huh.=)
i didn't do well for my tests at all. i am so gonna flunk all my subjects and be the first ever on history triple science student who was expelled from school due to bad *correction make that worst*ok the worst results ever.ok maybe i'm exaggerating here but this is suppose to vent my disappointment in myself so who cares huh.
in the beginning i blame it on the days that i didn't come to school so that its not my fault that i missed the lessons and coincidentally the stuff that the teacher taught was in the test paper right?However, think twice again man.I only missed school for 4 days.only 4 days, not 1 week not 1 month but only 4 days.How the hell in the world can i miss so much in lessons??i guess its my fault that i didn't do well at all.
i could have ask others for help, ask the teachers for extra lessons but did i bother to do that? the answer is a big fat NO. your resolution to study hard is so not going to succeed if you continue to slack like that miss lee gao ning!
everyone is striving hard and are you doing the same thing as them? again NO.
ok this is so damn depressing but that is just the truth huh.
i have to keep my head clear and only think about studies from now onwards.
no more thinking about ****** and ****.

i'm FAT!=(

2007-07-07T06:59:00.001-07:00

LOL i'm back to school and i'm FAT!!
well i guess i just have to find lots and lots of ways to slim down huh.=)
so buh bye fried food and all the oily oily stuff.from now onwards my friends will be the veggies and fruits.*i don't think i can maintain this diet for even a week but..who cares at least i TRIED.*=P

btw i need to announce why i did not use my blog for seven months and seven days.my blog dumped me and refuse to be with me no matter how much i beg it.Thus my dear friend MISS CHEOT YEE SEE have to persuade it to be with me and now we are happily together again.isn't that a nice story?i'm the editor,actor as well as the director.haha i'm multi-talented*and thats a joke*

the other reason that i didn't went to school for four days was because my granny passed away..
i miss you and i'm sorry for not treating you better while you are still there.i was a stupid idiot who assume that you didn't care about me but the truth was you kept your concern for us in your heart..the house felt weird without you.All the adults broke down but i did not drop a tear until i saw you lying on the bed never to wake up again....i admit that i never felt close to you as i seldom went to visit you but after this incident i realised the true meaning of blood thicker than water.even if we are never close i'm still your granddaughter and you are still my granny and nothing will change that fact. you are the woman that brought my dad up, taught him to be a good father and let me have a happy family.i was shocked to hear that the doctor was reviving you when i just saw you hours before you collapse.you seem alright at that moment but i did not expect that to be the last good bye when you told us to be careful after visiting you at
the hospital.the saddest thing was that no one was beside you when you left except the maid.none of us was at your side,not your children and not us,the grandchildren.rest in peace granny we all miss you.we will take care of ourselves and please do not worry.

After what had happen, i just wanna tell those guys who wanna commit suicide out there.think carefully before you do these foolish acts which you will regret.you are not solving the problem but creating more problems for your family.think about how devastated they will be when they know what you had did.life is really precious.

ok no more sad things now.we must look into the future huh.=)

I'm back!

2007-07-05T05:13:00.000-07:00

ok just now i type alot of stuff and when i'm just gonna finish my stupid com died on me.=(
is that unlucky or is that unlucky?ok i'm like answering my own question.YES i'm unlucky.anyway luck doesn't really matter here but i'm just pissed off now huh.

MYSTERY SOLVED!

2007-06-29T00:11:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA. wondering why i'm here.
er-hem, this is YEESEE :D

I SOLVE THE MYSTERY OF GAONING'S BLOG!

i discovered the problem, and i found out hw to log in.
Cheot Yee See, you're so smart man (:
i think gaoning would be super shocked/suprised to see this post!
haha, if you happen to already read this post,
come to me, and i will tell you hw to log in yr own account!
MUAHAHAHA.

yea, okay, i shall help her blog abit, summarise all events.

1) She tore her ligament in her leg, but nw she's well again.
(but no physical/strainious exercise for 2 whole weeks)

2) She was supposed to wear a cast+crutches for a month,
but now she has only a bandage, and is currently limping everywhere she goes ;)

3) She finally got back to school tdy after 4 days!

4) She has alot of homework to catch up on, HAHA!

5) I was a nice friend, and wrote all the homework she had to do,
and collected 'em, for her.

Ain't I nice? hoho, C'mon people, say "AWWW!!"

Haha, alrights, enough of my nonsense, gotta run.

BYE!

once again, this is CHEOT YEE SEE, or if you like it better, CHEN YEE SEE :D

2007

2007-01-01T05:52:00.000-08:00

Yea!!Its a new year now and jus yesterday it was my parents wedding aniversery.i guess they were smart 17 years ago cause even if they were jus married for one day they can say they were married for one year.and its a nice date to remember too.
hmm..came back at 3 plus this mornin.went out with veron and family to marina south to watch the fireworks.
well the view was nice and we made two wishes with sparklers and cups of coke.
went for supper at lao ba sha and went home.
maybe....jus maybe this year's countdown wil be different from last year.
may this year be filled with laughter and joy for everyone in this whole wide world!=D

p.s.HAPPY 17th WEDDING ANIVERSARY MUM AND DAD!

p.p.s.HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

mixed emotions

2006-12-13T23:32:00.000-08:00

well here i am once again.
camp's over.
and in 2 to 3 more weeks the year will be over too.
a new class a new start a new beginnin.
new friends new relationships new year.
new books new bags new classmates.
and everything wil be almost new.
and sec 4s wil be gone.
wonder what sports cap wil be without sec 4s.
this camp was like the LAST offical event when we can meet the sec 4s.
donno why but i felt sad when the camp's over.
no doubt we'll still meet them but..it jus feels weird that sec 4s are leavin.
wonder wil the sec 2s be as unitied as the sec 4s.
the sec 4s were one BIG grp but us?we are like scattered all over the place.one small grp here and there.
shoot maybe i shall jus talk abt the camp next time.

2Excellence

2006-11-09T05:38:00.000-08:00

well all i can say that is 2E is the class where all sorts of ppl will mingle together and laughter can always be heard far away..
2E-excellence
we ARE excellent in a kind of way i guess..
each one play a part in the class as we always says that the class feels weird without 1 person there..
ahh!!i donno how to say but i will miss everyone of them.YES i mean EVERYONE OF THEM.
surprisin?nah,not really..i guess everyone will have that feeling..
2 years already neither too long nor too short..
i still rmb the first day when i reach the sch..freddy sit infront of me and i'm so damn freakin nervous,eager to know the sch and make new frens..
and i did..the first person that talk to me was ying ying and boy are we good frens after that..
the way yi jun introduced herself, yees have either blue clips and blue rubber band or pink clips and pink rubber band...
down the memory lane again..
many things happen throughout these two years.i still rmb the quarrel between me and yees and it seems funny when we looked back and we even joke abt it from time to time.
i guess we understand each other although it was a hard time i guess..gettin back into her good books after i shouted at her and made her cry..that day was horrible..luckily everything was alrite..
ok i wanna apologise to 2E-ians is i have ever offended u or anything..
well at least we are still in the same sch so at least we can still keep in contach and all that
AND THE MOST IMPORTANT is we are gonna have a 2E chalet..
ok not confirm yet but we BETTER have a 2E chalet if not i guess mr soh will be in trouble..
haha ok no threatens here..
well still miss 2E la..
have a wonderful sec3 year ahead all sec twos..

MORE THEN WORDS

2006-11-07T05:49:00.000-08:00

I GET INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE ELECTIVE GEOG!!!
ah!!
ok its my first choice and i'm seriously glad kay
and yees is in my class!
ok another bonus for making me happy.=DD
but 2E'06 will always be in every 2E-ian heart i guess..
ahh!
i have so many things to say but i donno where to start
ok ISRAELIES exchange programme first
ok well i'm glad that i joined the programme but seriouly in the beginnin before i went to fetch them i regretted a little.
but in the end still HAPPY.
my buddy sophie has nice curly hair and i mean CURLY.but it looks nice and she has an average height average weight average hair and all that.
she lost her suitcase in the beginnin but luckily we found it in the end.
we went to lots of places and its kinda like a treat for us too as we get a break from sch and went to ALOT of places for free.
i have to confessed that i get a little pissed at my buddy but compared to the others..
yees and i had the best buddies i guess.
all wells wells???
ok i heard it from my sis but it sounds interestin.
and the most nice thing is i get to meet YAIR AND YARDEN!
ok and other ppl too from israel but those guys are seriously cute
one has nice cute eyes with a personailty of fun while the other has nice hair good sense of humour and is best friends with Ben and Jerry and he is kinda my temporary boyfriend for those few days.no fireworks but we are just playin around so ya.
hahas oh i missed them!
and what Mor say makes so much sense and she is the intelligent one.this is what she says
"Tolerance is needed as we have different culture''and all that cause i can only rmb these
i think the main point of the programme is TOLERANCE and CARING.
we learnt to be friends with others understand oneanother bear with oneanother and i believed many of us have done that well..
i didnt realised that i'll missed them so much when we sent them off at the airport but i did not cry.tryin hard not to is because we believed there will be a day when we will meet again.
i missed SOPHIE and her way of liking to touch ppl's hair and her lopsided smile...
i missed YARDEN and his way of always callin me food names and his cheerful smile..
i missed YAIR and his way of sniling and his nice bright big eyes..
ahh!ok i kinda missed all of them

nvm next time then i write abt 2E my all time favourite class.bb

I'm Here (:

2006-10-30T15:28:00.000-08:00

Ooh, ~~CHEN~~ cheot yee see is here.
Miss lee gaoning has went for a trip to outer space.
Or maybe here own lala-land, who knows?
So it's my job to prevent this blog from breeding insects.

Ah, yes, back to what i wanna say:
As you people know, the both of us joined
Israeli eXchange 2006 (:
It;'s was fun, for the details go HERE
yea, yea, yea. click that.
For pictures, it's HERE :D
Shall not further elaborate. haha.
Pictures will tell you the story.

Gaoning was pissed at her buddy,
and you don't wanna know why.
IT'S A LONG STORY.
All in all, we still enjoyed fun times with them.
And you bet, we miss them loads.
especially YAIR :D hoho.

Oh well, enough contributing to this blog.
Off to playing Sims, do continue to patronise her blog!
Though you might like to read my stories.
HAHA, okay, kidding.

at chaticha.
which simply means, you are pretty.
In hebrew.

hah

2006-10-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

found these on yees blog
i shall be an obedient girl and and blog abt it too..

1. i'll respond with smth random about you.
2. i'll challenge you to try smth new.
3. i'll pick a colour i associate with you.
4. i'll tell you smth i like about you.
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. i'll ask you smth i've always wanted to ask you.
8. you must post this on your blog (:

this is what yees say abt me

Gao Ning
1. You love WOODSTOCKS.
2. Wear a lime green bikini
3. Lime green, since you like it so much
4. Your teeth, so white (:
5. Sporty when i saw you during sec one.
6. Does Garfield count?
7. Why do you adore guys with small eyes?

well..i jus wanna answer question 2
if i have the figure i will wear it but it might be years before i get it so don get ur hopes up kay..hehe*i know u like me..i know u do..*

hahas..gaoning getting horny liao..*as if*

kay fine back to the subject..
i shall start with yees since she bring me in in the first place.

YEESEE
1.you are adorable
2.learn wushu*so u can accompany me*
3.ORANGE ur favourite color
4.ur two cute fishballs on ur face! so cute rite..
5.u and ur pink clips and pink rubber band in sec 1
6.orang utan???
7.how come you like people with nice eyes?

GAOMIN
1.smartass
2.go learn car racing
3.PURPLE
4.your tall tall height*so jealous*
5.the time when you tie a coconut tree on top of my head
6.girraffe
7.how can you be so blur at times?

VERONICA
1.nice hair
2.go learn ballet
3.RED
4.ur figure
5.you talking to me during sc camp
6.dolphine
7.why are you so elegant?

YINGYING
1.so thin
2.go ride a bull?
3.WHITE
4.u are a whiz in maths
5.first person that talk and know me in tms
6.elephant*cause so helpful*
7.why your skirt so long and went sideways wan?

mission accomplished!
went to cut my hair today.regretted not washing but nvm..cause i'm broke
i missed my LG phone..
its all my carelessness that caused it to drop into the bowl of soup
right after my birthday too..
haix..so sad.
inside got alot of fab pics and msgs but now all is GONE..
i think there's msg in the soup cause the soup is *pepper pig stomach soup*???
now the soup is call *pepper pig stomach handphone soup* le
ahh.. i miss my phone..
at least i get to buy a new one but i will always rmb the day when i invent a new receipe..

ok shall not cry over spilled soup le..
i shall prepare a funeral for you my dear phone..
bb

OVER AND OUT

2006-10-12T00:14:00.000-07:00

exams are over
as in over and out
ok fine i dont know what am i doing now
just feeling weird after muggin so long
and theres nothing for me to study so i can just play read sleep com and all that jazz..
hehe i'm a lazy frog
dont ask me why frog but not pig cause i also donnno why ;)
i'm seriously wasting time here but who cares?time is not very precious at this moment..*applied to me gN*
now is relax time until the day i get back my result slip.
and my birthday comes and goes.thanks for the presents peeps.
now is my mum's birthday and i'm supposed to cook spagetthi for her but i donno the receipe!!
nvm yees will get it for me.
i seriously feel bored now..i think there something wrong with me here cause i think i kinda miss studyin but i think its just a small illness and it will be cured after 10 seconds..
ok..
lets count down
10

9

8

7

6

5

4

3

2

ONE!!

ok perfectly cured now..
u may think this is stupid but to me this call SELF-ENTERTAINMENT.
smart right..hahas

kay i shall go do things which are considered self-entertainment bye!

BACK!

2006-09-03T05:34:00.000-07:00

HELLO ppl!!
gaoning the GREAT is back!!
hahas..
ok.i'm self entertaining myself
nvm.i'm born to be an entertainer
maybe i shall be a clown huh.
september holidays have arrive.
but whats the point of having a one week holiday when you have projects and dozens of hw to do..
makes no sense huh.
~well~
tell that to the teachers and the answer will be you get more hw..
so being *nice* and *good* students we have to keep our mouths shut when it comes to sch work..
the only day for teachers to relax was the day when i had a limited amount of sleep.
being *nice* again..i offered to fried the nuggets and others and make sushi for the breakfast party..making my parents and i tired
being sweet parents..they stayed up with me to do the sushi..
so sweet and nice of them..
thanks you mum and dad for being there for me..love u lots!!=)
aiyo..so mushy can..hahas.nvm.this is a no-sense thing that only me myself and i will understand.
anyway luckily the food was ok although making too much sushi make me think that
it looks disgusting but many of them said that it was nice so my effort was not wasted.
went back to pvps and saw teachers and friends..
it felt nice to see everyone one of them and chat like there was no tomorrow..
neither the food nor the friendships between us change and i hope it will never change huh..
:)
i'm bored.
and i'm tired of entertaining myself so any kind soul out there..espically HOT GUYS
make me happy..omg..it sounds A BIT wrong..ok
i only want my hot guy..but he doesn't belong to me.so sad..=(
lol
bye ppl
HAVE A NICE DAY!!or in other case..HAVE A NICE AFTERNOON!!orr in other case.. HAVE A NICE EVENING!!orrr in other case..HAVE A NICE NIGHT!!
hahohaho..=)

kites!!

2006-08-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

jus went out in the afternoon to go kite flying with yees and her church friends..
it was fun..seriously..when u see the kite went into the sky u will feel satisfied..
i'm so proud of my kite..although it cost onli cost $1.50 and it *died* in the end..i'm still glad because its my first kite that i ever own and it went way high into the sky..we cant even see it as it was jus a very very very small white spot..ok..actually we can..i'm jus exaggerating but its true..we hav to squint our eyes to see the kite..not onli mine..yees too..she catch up so fast can..
the string was not even enough for us lo..we*me and jasmine* use 3 rolls while they*yees and su ling?*used 4 rolls i tink..
i fly the kite until i'm tired..i wonder why actually cause i'm not suppossed to be tired so easily..and i flew my kite for 2 hrs straight without stoppin!!maybe i can make the world recold someday huh..
i was hoppin if i have enough string maybe i can fly it to malaysia and wow..from one country to another should be amazing but i never did it..cause i'm onli joking!!
but it might be possible..i shall try it someday..
oh.. and her friends were very nice to me..it was fun..and i'm sorry not to have dinner with u guys..cause i'm just a good child who promised her mum that she will go home and eat dinner and in the end her freakin *nice* elder sister DID NOT tell her mum she's coming home to eat so the poor sweet girl have to eat instant noodles..
what kind of logic is that?!!
ok..jus like my blog link huh..nosensenologic..
i'm making an advertisement for my blog!!

so tired..but what a wonderful wonderful day...
i cant believe i actually regretted my decision in comin kite flyin in the beginnin but now...
heh heh..i'm a little addicted to kite flyin now.i wanna fly kites!! oh..and at the end when we were pullin down our kites..both of the kites went very close like dancing or like friends like that..so sweet rite..hahas..

i hope i can dream of kite flying and thanks to yees and her friends again for making it fun..thanks guys..and girls too!!=)

DRAGON TIGER GATE

2006-07-29T02:44:00.000-07:00

ppl out there don't be jealous of me because i've jus went to watch DRAGON TIGER GATE!!
ahaha..ok i'm jus fooling around..i jus went to watch the movie with yees and its so nice!!
shawn yue is so cute!!=)
his sliver hair is so not him but he is still cute!!hahas..
ok..
there are alot of tests going on now..
i'm so stressed!! but must work hard huh..there are 3 more tests next week..
haix..what to do?except study harder and harder..
but parents jus don understand..
why?? ANSWER ME WHY ARE YOU DOIN THIS TO ME?!!
hahas..onli my beautifools will noe wat am i talking about..
ok..back to my studyin now..

hav a nice day

jus forget abt it..

2006-07-22T22:35:00.000-07:00

ok ppl..
rmb the last post i made before this???
jus foget abt it kay..
its jus for a little emoin and jus to relieve stress and blah blah blah all sorts of reasons..
so the conclusion is..jus pretend the post was never been made and u guys out there hav never read it..
ok..end of story.
oh.. and no more emoin in my blog for goodness sake..i FEELS WEIRD readin abt it..
jus treat it as rubbish..
now now..onli fun can be found on MY blog no more silliness foolishness and blah blah blah
startin frm...............a day i guess..
oh..i never even talked abt the guys that come from china.. how blur can i get..
1 of them is reali cute and i managed to know his name!! jealous??hahas..
and theres 1 guy who sit behind me called tao yi and thanks to him..our grp hav the most points once again!!three cheers for him!!
theres 1 time when he have to read the passage but he don hav the textbook so at the same time me and yeesee passed him out textbook!!so funny..but he accepted yees wan..so sad can..=)
and thanks to nissa who lent me her costume on racial harmony..although i didn wear it in the end..

ok peeps..bye and i'm gettin fatter!!!!
can someone grant me a wish so that i can slim down??but i don wan slimmin pills..so unhealthy.=))

things are jus not the same as before..

2006-07-21T05:12:00.000-07:00

well...i keep sayin that i will blog and finally..i did..
things in sch hav change..
problems are arising(is that the word?) among u
we are havin misunderstandins
no fights no anyting
but deep in our hearts..we know something hav happen
we donno how to express our feelings
we are goin our seperate ways
takin sides
not notifyin(???)each other
havin attitude problems..
havin irritatin faces...
havin ppl who are considered deaf
havin ppl who jus speaks too soft
havin ppl who are inconsiderate
havin ppl who are bein unreasonable
havin ppl who complains
havin lots and lots and lots....
both parties are in the wrong
but does u guys understand that??
i hope we can settle this peacefully and calmly..
it jus does not appeal to me..
so i wish that we can settle these as soon as possible..
and after today i feel that bein a teenager is NOT as easy as what others think..
i also found out that i'm not the onli wan who hav problems..
i'm jus bein selfish..
i taut i hav the worst life in the world..
i taut noone understands me..
everyone thinks that i'm jus a happy cheerful joker that who doesnt takes things seriously i'm a strong girl who dont mind ppl gossipin abt me i am insensitive...but the truth is...
i'm not what u tink i am..i'm jus me..i will feel annoyed i will feel sad i wil feel irritated..
sometimes i jus feel like cryin but noone is there to comfort me listen to me..and its partly my fault too..in order not to let u guys tink that i'm such a whimp,not to worry abt me as u guys hav ur own problems too,i hav build a wall in my heart..noone can enter it not even myself..i hav thrown away the key to it..unless someone managed to find it..which i tink..its impossible..
actuarlly i jus realised that others hav the same problems too..
some of them are worse and complicated then mine..

hope u guys out there can find ur solutions to ur problems and cheers to us who are tryin to find our trueselves..

hav a nice day..

and pls don be offended by whoever u are ok..jus feel like pourin my hearts out..=)

HERE I AM (:

2006-07-20T22:44:00.000-07:00

it's always up to me to update her blog huh.
lazy girl, well, i have got nothing to do,
just reading sims2 stories, those people create with their characters.
and miss lee gao ning here just realised something today,
she found out that she recorded a lot of shows for me,
but she never did pass the tapes to me.
haha, she's my tape recorder, once i can't watch something,
she will tape it for me.

For example, this scenario,

ME: shit, i can't watch singapore idol today, aiya, wasted

GAONING: eh, you want me help you record not?

of course i would be like nodding, and OKOK!
she very automatic, that's very good!

well, okay, nothing more to comment on.

oh and gaoning likes to say, " I like your way of thinking man!"
okay, that was just random.

G'nite.

YEES spat on gaoning's blog..

NEW ADDRESS (:

2006-07-02T23:41:00.000-07:00

i've change my ADDRESS!!=D
it suits me la..
cause both are my favourite words and it discribes me..
didnt update for such a long time..
feels weird abt it..
well..sch hols are over and its the beginning of a new term and semester..
cheers to havin gd results and friends will be happy and findin something which i longed to have..
hahas..as yees say *rang ni xing yang yang*..
so i shall keep that secret to myself..
went to yees hse today to do lit project and i've gotten my haircut..
its short and simple but it wasnt what i want..
at least it looks ok to me and theres nothing i can do so i shall jus let it be huh..